Share with Fish my current situation as well as my feeling these days.
Like last time. A very critical mind.
The last message is the conclusion.
The answer is out there. No need to bother anymore. Leave it before it hurts. Like at the begining, shouldn't expect anything.
Don't wanna give up? then should follow the rules of the game.
Yet, the cost for me to play is too largr for me to continue, as such, no need to bother anymore....

Concentrate now..
Please.