I know my temper fluctuates alot .
Last night really not in good mood. I weeped all night long until fell asleep silently. I shouldn't come, I will think twice next time.
This morning wanna leave at once after washing the single.
I cried because of your words. I wanna leave because of your words.
I am talking on the phone with you now, hearing you advice/comment (whatever you describe the terms), not feeling good , but still listening.
Why always..90%-95% is you .. you know why now I talk less and less, and even unwilling to talk? The more you force, the more the tense.
I think it will be more workable if you have your logical speech in front of the leader meeting.
Yes, stay with friend is much better and confortable. As lease I feel in a free, balance and equitable situation.
And with you, surely not this case.
Now Carmen really tired, hesitating. I should find someway to balance. I should find back myself.
In my point of view, to stay together at least stable (happy) first, instead of planning any target.
Maybe what you think I am naive, illogical, immature, (all from your feedback and response) etc etc.. however this is truely what I feel, and I hope someone to be silent and listen without any 'attacking' replied.
To Cry, is a way to express (always being hurted), to give self a m0ment to silent, and therefore change, transform to another stage to ensure the situation won't happen again. I am under transformation.
Dont know why, I always remember a conversation with you.
When I am very tired. All sweat, and hot. Having bread as lunch on the bus. Rushing back to office at 2.
U called . I answered. Saying I am just having bread as lunch on the bus, expecting some encouaging word.
U answered ' mm...yes, we should safe more'.
